This post is dedicated to Mike.
Flash Forward is on tonight ABC 8pm. In a sentence, everyone in the world for 2 minutes 17 seconds gets a glimpse of their future. The rest of the series is about each persons struggle with accepting it or changing it. They want that future or they don’t and ultimately through action they can move with the universes natural momentum or work really hard to change their course.
I believe changing course takes a huge amount of energy, focus, dominion over ones self and natural tendencies. Changing course is really hard. The course is set starting at birth, but thank God for free will and self will. Most people are too lazy or too committed to their personal comfort rather than their well being to change their course. They don’t realize that they are choosing for their children and grandchildren as well. I really wish I understood as an eleven year old that my daily personal choices would have a huge impact on my life today and that of my children and so on. This could sound like it is a conversation moving into regret. NOT at all. It is a conversation about consequences of roads taken and once a turn has been made, because we can’t turn around and go back into the past, to get back on track would take a rug-ed cross country trek, changing course almost becomes impossible.
I was such a person and still am struggling with my own personal comfort verses well being. I wish I could say I got maximum benefits out of my IQ or my physical body. I took the road that was committed to my comfort, my insecurity and fear level. I am a bit of a pioneer and an adventurer. You don’t go off to Europe alone as a teen without a pair, but not a big enough pair to continue on alone. I gave into my loneliness, went back to whom and what I knew and became a restaurant worker for a stint. Comfortable. Partied with my friends comfortable. Didn’t lose 5 pounds to get on the plane to go to Japan, way too uncomfortable. The discomfort for me was usually around fear that the future wouldn’t please me.
My intention this am is to write a short piece and diving into my biography none of us have time for but my point is I am going cross country. I am creating my own momentum. Each day I work toward a new future. Where will I be in 6 months with my eating habits unleashed 25 pounds bigger. My exercise habits will have me in lower back pain if I am not in the gym 1 hour a day. My workaholic tendencies will have my business getting stronger, but I will be grumpy fat and out of shape which won’t read well to future clients. I am going to have to work smarter instead of longer and harder. I realize balance is the keystone to my well being and I have to fight myself daily to live in it. Yesterday at 2pm when my stomach began growling I realized I hadn’t really eaten. I was hyper focussed on work. Not good if I want to stay fueled for a cross country trek.
Today I have thought about few things I can do to change the trajectory of the future I created for myself when I was 11 and to create more balance in my life today.
A few small changes
in the house by 3:25 for domestics and family time.
1st thing am lemon and h20.
7 minute sitting meditation.
paint 30 minutes 3 times a week.
put it back when I am finished.
Now off to another cup of coffee and I will consider green tea tomorrow. BLEK.
P. S. I do believe that little things can make a huge difference years down a road. Just like a jet can change course by a few degrees and be 1000 miles off course by the end of the trip. Since my youth, a few things I did do a while back to change my future. 22 years ago I gave up all mood and mind altering substances, No booze, no pills, no nothing. I quit smoking four years back and lost the weight I gained behind it. I treadmill and stretch an hour a day. I work out with a kung fu teacher. I eat candy rarely. I limit my coffee to 2 cups a day and introduced soymilk into it. I have a spiritual life. I read educational topics an hour a day. I stay away from mean gossipy people. Red meat is rare now. More fruit and veg and we eat some food out of our garden. For years I used to write every morning and walk in the meadow as well as practice sitting meditation I could take those up again. TV is a rarity. I help people and I let them help me too. Just a few things I have changed.
